We all have a story. This is Mine.
I was 31 and pregnant with my second child and struggling to balance work and family. I was keeping fit, I liked my job, I had a nice house, everything was good. Then one day my sister called and told me I had to sit down. She then proceeded to tell my mom had ALS. A terminal illness with no cure that would slowly take away her ability to walk and move and talk.
And my life changed forever.
I was hospitalized for pneumonia, and I decided that life was too short so took my maternity leave early. I had my baby and I asked my mom to come live with us to help us while she still could. Through the next 18 months I struggled with two little kids, a move to the city, a very busy working husband who was a sole bread winner, and watching my mom deteriorate every day. She had been a very physical person, a fitness instructor and personal trainer. She had inspired people to get up and move. At the time I was working in a job that did not fill my soul. It did not crush me, and it paid the bills, but it was not what I wanted to do. I had always had a passion for fitness and for people, just like my mom.
When I was a kid I wanted to be a gym teacher or a psychiatrist. Through the years I did courses in personal training and group fitness but I never finished the course because I was too scared to fail the test. I was a perfectionist, afraid to look bad. My mom died 18 months after her diagnosis. I had a 3 year old and an 18 month old. I had chronic pneumonia and was sick almost every month. My marriage suffered. My husband needed to pay for our life so he worked and I raised the kids. It wasn't the way I imagined. I realized that LIFE IS TOO SHORT NOT TO LIVE IT FULLY AND PASSIONATELY.
I took charge of my life. I got healthy again with a good healthy diet and exercise which I did IN MY LIVING ROOM. It took some time but eventually I got comfortable and confident and I started living the life I wanted. I started teaching classes at the local YMCA and I started writing my blog... but things were still not right. I had to do more.
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I decided to do what I wanted to do instead of doing what others told me was "the right thing". I started living for myself, and for the kids. I started coaching at a Crossfit gym, I got stronger every day in my training. I learned to love my body as it was. I healed from the trauma of losing my mom and the shame of having a broken marriage (i may have yada yada'd that point). I accepted who I was. My body, my story and my life: The good, the bad, and the ugly. I made some mistakes, some BIG some small but I kept going. For the first time in my life I decided that I would do things even if I wasn't ready or if they were not perfect.
Life is short. I am here today because I wasn't afraid to make mistakes. Because I trusted my gut and stopped asking people "should I do this?" I became the creator of my life.
NOW I WANT TO GIVE BACK TO YOU.
I want to teach you how to break through your fears and create change in your body, your mind in your soul. Start with your body and make that change and the rest will follow.
There is no better feeling then feeling like you are taking charge of your life.
No matter how far you have to go, you can get there if you believe and take charge. In the darkest of my times I was medicated for a major depression, medicating myself with food and alcohol, and just waiting for the next day to come.
Today I wake up every morning excited to be alive. Excited for it all... the good, the bad and the ugly. My life isn't perfect, but I feel like I have it all. I don't have to wait for retirement to be happy. I am happy now. I always wonder what my mom would say about how far I have grown since she passed, but part of me believes that I may not have evolved as much had she not been sick and passed away. I truly believe that the light comes from the darkness.
Accept what you cannot change and change what you can. But If she was here today she would be proud. Proud that I am carrying on her mission to help people and inspire them to live their best life. I am carrying on her legacy.
My purpose and mission in life is to help you become the strongest version of yourself, find your true potential both inside and outside the gym, and live your best life EVERY SINGLE DAY.
YMCA Personal Trainer
YMCA Group Fitness Instructor
CrossFit Level 2 Trainer
Agatsu Kettlebell Instructor
Gymnastics Bodies Level 1 Seminar Participant
CrossFit Gymnastics Trainer
Agatsu Joint Mobility and Movement
CrossFit Mobility Trainer
CrossFit Kids Coach
School of Hard-knocks